So I haven't written in a while. Actually, I haven't kept numerous promises to myself:
- Post for my coaching blog by Tuesday: two Tuesdays missed.
- Call three people a day to offer them an Introductory Session: reached out to one person in two weeks.
- Finish a post for my e-mail madness and Sites that Win blogs: in process, but just not done.
- Reach out to various other people I have promised to: looked up some contacts; didn't reach out.
- Keep up on certain on-line coursework: Did some, but not on schedule in a powerful way.
- Create another business that's bubbling in my head.
- Comment on and engage in the politics.
As I look at this list, I also notice that I don't really have deadlines on a number of these things, and that some are ongoing so that even more structure is required to keep them in place. I've been avoiding building that structure. Even worse, I have been beating myself up for not taking the required steps, and letting other structures go to pot.
Last Concept II ranking year, I rowed three million meters on my rowing machine. That was like three out of five days. This year, I said I'd get out to bicycle. It's happened like four times in the past two months. I was eating better, but some how gave up knowing myself as a person who eats well, I've let that go to hell as well. I just about made myself sick with all the junk I ate yesterday.
So I am noticing a lack of urgency. And I am talking to my wife today (I do that sometimes), and we're looking at whether I am really playing any games I'd like to. And I think I'm scared of taking on any really big games (like changing the nature of education, society, and our political discourse), and therefore the little ones don't excite me much either. I am a great coach, but if all I ever am is a greater coach, or a more successful coach, I don't know if that would really excite me.
So instead, I run a lot on autopilot, and there's a lot in my autopilot that is pretty damned good. I think I take decent care of my wife and kids (though that's not enough either, and there are some big gaps there as well), and I do make a difference in the larger world. But mostly I fill my time being busy instead of intentional. I'm missing the plan to make the bigger intentions and dreams a reality, and even some of the smaller ones.
But that's not what I am committed to having. So I am going to go back to the fundamentals, and making sure I've got one win chalked up on the score card each day. It might not sound like much, and I'm pretty sure that as I start counting, I'll see I'm winning much more than that, but this is not my experience right now, and I think this is the biggest part of what's killing me.
So I'm bringing myself back to life. If you'd like my help doing the same, schedule a conversation with me. Use Coupon Code Yes-To-Life to pay one hundred dollars instead of the usual five.
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